exercise, etc

Our exercise routine did not get very far. Right after I implemented it, the children became ill and we've been fighting to get well ever since. Hopefully, tomorrow, we'll be starting our new routine again. I am looking forward to getting up and getting moving. Well, maybe not the getting up part but it will be nice to be active.

Speaking of which, I have been thinking about trying to get back into shape. Which, is going to be so very hard for me. I need to lose roughly 50 pounds at this point to get back into a healthy weight range. That seems so impossible for me. I use food to soothe my nerves, my emotions, my stress, my life. I know that is unhealthy and it is going to be really hard to replace those habits. The other thing that will be difficult is getting into a normal exercise routine and sticking with it. I can't tell you the number of things that I have started on and then went strong for a month or two and then gave up. I really want to succeed in this but it is going to be so difficult. It's a whole new way of life. Not a diet fad. A new way of seeing the food I put into my body and a new way of examining what I do with my time and energies.

I've been debating joining Planet Fitness but I hate to do that because I do not want to be seen by the general public huffing and puffing away on some piece of machinery. I am hoping to invest in a recumbent exercise bike and to walk the neighborhood. I enjoy walking so I just need to do it. Ya know, like Nike's slogan, Just do it.

So, those of you who know me, check in with me every now and then and ask me how it's going. I need to be accountable. I know I need to be accountable to God but I need to be accountable to Eddie, too. But, I think it would help if other people held me accountable, as well. I mean, there are times when Eddie will ask if I have exercised and I get angry with him or I feel like he's trying to point out how badly I need the exercise. Which, is not the case at all. That's not a fair reaction to him, especially when I've asked him to help me out in this area!!!

Well, there's more that I wanted to blog about here but I really don't want to spend the emotional energy expounding on it right now. It can wait until another blog. Take care all and have a wonderful week!